Am I a girl who is weak and always calling for help from others?

Last Friday, I emailed my friend for a help for our case study; I asked him to give a medical diagnosis and medical management for my patient who has a pneumothorax due to COPD (chronic obstructive pulmonary disease). At first, I am doubtful if I will email him or not, because I am also thinking that since we became friends I always asking for help. But because what I need is a medical diagnosis (fyi nurses are not intended to make medical diagnosis,what we do is a nursing diagnosis. They are far different from each other), which is in his expertise, I seek for help.

I waited bleakly for his response, because for the past few days he always snob my text messages and friendster comments. In fact, I told him that if he didn’t want it to do, just tell me about it immediately. But wah! He made a reply, so long nga eh. But sad to say,, this is what he told me.. “hi edmer!i hope u will not get me wrong pero gusto ko matutunan mo sya with minimal help from other people. kasi kung ako ang gagawa ng Dx at treatment, case study ko na sya hindi syo.hindi ako matatahimik pag tinuruan kitang dumipende sa iba at maging mahina at hindi tumayo sa sarili mong paa. But of course I could always help you.” (I want you to learn this with minimal help from other people,because if I’ll be the one to make the diagnosis and treatment, the case study will not be yours but mine, I will not be in peace if I will teach you to depend to others, be weak and be a person who cannot stand in her own feet.)

Dumipende sa iba at maging mahina at hindi tumayo sa sarili mong paa.?Huhu…At first I did not mind what he says, I focused to the clues he gave about the case. I am excited to solve the mystery (detective? :p) But when I read it again…The truth really hurts… Actually, I don’t get him wrong..I am so happy pa nga because he is trying to help me. But I don’t like that those words will come from him…I am so ashamed, I don’t want that he will label me as a parasite, a weak, or be a Miss Dependent (thank God he didn’t)

To cut this long sentiment short,,let me share to you what Dr Stockmann said, “I’ve made a great discovery…The fact is, you see, that the strongest man in the world is he who stands most alone.”

From now on, I will try to be self-sufficient to survive. I will seek minimal help from other people but I confessed this to you, there is one thing I can’t change in myself and that is being a full-time dependent child of God. ayt? :j

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